Blue House Baby

Oh dear.

I have done no work all weekend. I have done nothing all week.

And I really do not feel in the mood to attempt the essay that is due in tomorrow.

I want to go to bed.

I don't ever really remember feeling this despondent before. Eurgh.

I wish this term hadn't happened.

NY1

I have woken up annoyed.

This does not bode well.

Urg.

Right. Facebook event creating time!

Damn

My plan for activity today was foiled by only getting up at 12.

Again.

2nd day in a row.

It keeps happening for no reason.. I shouldn't be tired!

Chilled

All the gold, and the guns, and the girls..

I have an acoustic version. It's nice.

One of our fellows died. He was a complete and utter legend. I was surprised by how sad I felt. It's quite strange. Anyway.

I have been trying to redo my cv today. It hasn't really worked. I don't think. I've basically put everything into slightly different lists, and cut out all the crap. At least it looks slim.

I just.. urgh. Want to be employed by somebody.

Right. Careers thing. Then club night. Will be good times. Tiring times. But still.

I'm still feeling sub-par. But then I do tend to drag these things out. I just.. want to sleep all the time. And do no work, because I can't concentrate. And I end up tired no matter how much I sleep [even though I haven't had much recently], and then I get all tetchy. Tetch, tetch.

Hmm. Must improve cv.

Can't remember what I was going to ramble about..

Headlock

I am still absolutely miserable.

I mean, well, like, not on the surface I suppose.

But inside.. I just.. it's not nice.

I just feel.. missing.. somehow.

I can't concentrate. I can't get out of bed. I can't really do anything.

And once again, I desperately don't want this term to end, because then it's all definitely gone for good. Sigh.

Another depressing thing is that I have noticed how few friends I have this year. Plenty of acquaintances, as always. But only 2 friends really. Like, people that I'd call if I felt like watching something stupid on tv. That's down like 66.7% Humphs.

Some non depressing things:

I watched dr. who.

Tegan and Sara were freaking awesome. Like uh-mazing.

I have double duveted my bed. Mm, warmth.

I watched monsters vs aliens, and it was hilarious. And had hugh laurie. Added bonus.

Mentioning hugh laurie has made me remember that there are probably a gazillion house episodes that I have to watch.

I am going to formal on Weds at a college I have never even been to before.

I haven't died yet.

I haven't been kicked out yet.

Rights, I should attempt to tidy my room or summat. Or watch more tv...

Hmm..

TandS

Were amazing.

End of.

5th Week Blacks N Blues

I think this is the worst 5th week I've ever had.

Today's mundane activities -

Football: I lost my clean sheet. 4-1. I hurt lots of my 'muscles' by throwing myself at the ground. I got kicked in the face.

Sadly, no black eye.

Polo: Was so tired from football/the cycle there that I just couldn't do anything. I nearly fell off. But my xc 'muscles' kicked in and I managed to stay on. So I guess that is actually a positive.

I am so tired that I could cry. Not that I need any more reasons to. I've got the crying thing down pretty well.

I am spending too long in bed.

I can't concentrate on anything.

Litch.

My little polo concentration bubble was burst. =(

Sigh.

Have so much stupid complicated reading to do for tomorrow.

Why can't this university invent time outs? Like, you get 3 a year.. for when things just get ridiculous. You could have a nice week off.

I am considering making a break for belfast. Or something. I don't really know. I just know I don't really want to be here. No one is left.

Bah.

3 wishes

I wish this hadn't happened.

I wish I could fix it.

I wish it didn't hurt.

I am not looking forward to the mess I am going to be.

At least I have a very nice husband, and a video project to focus on.

Focus.

Keep calm and carry on.

Oh god.

Scholar

Is one thing I am not.

Urgh.

I have filled in a scholarship form. I am not going to get anywhere with it.. oh well.

I'm used to it all by now!

I feel so incredibly tired, for no fucking reason. So annoying.

Have to write an essay for tomorrow. And I just don't want to. I can tell my supervision reports for this term are going to be shite.

So tired.

Sigh.

Oh if I was a labrador, I wouldn't be sad anymore, I'd just run about and piss on everything...

Yawn2

I have far too much to do, and I just want to go back to bed..