Sting

Sigh.
I shouldn't have bothered with the past 8 months, apparently. I feel so fucking hurt and confused and I don't know what the hell to do.
I'm starting to get frustrated at being told I'm not talking or opening up, when nobody is actually responding or telling me what they actually want.
For example if I say 'not really, because I don't see how blue can't be involved in the making of green' that isn't a complete and utter 'no', it's an explanation (i.e. what I am having difficulty understanding) and an invitation for further detail (i.e please tell me how on earth you can make green without using blue).
And it's really eye opening when someone is relatively care-free about the future. Sigh. Don't know what I expected really.

Like, if X doesn't want me around because of what happened with Y, fair enough. I can get that.
I would also expect that it involved me not talking to Y. Because, y'know, that makes sense.
What I don't get is why it's not ok for me to be around, but it is ok to still be friends with Y. To me, that makes the entire friendship false and incredibly superficial. No?

Just tell me to fuck off already. It's not like one more twist of the knife is gonna hurt.