Red Dwarf

Second episode tonight. Should be good seeing as the set up ep has been done.

I'm liking easter tv. Dr Who special. 

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The second ep was way better than the first. 

Anyway. I'm sick of talking about t-fucking-v. 

I made my blog private for a while today. It was nice. 

I've begun to feel pressured by this blog. I have to write something long and interesting and well written. Which blates never happens. To make sure that I don't upset anyone, which I have been doing pretty constantly lately. 

And it got to a point where I just didn't want it there anymore. I know it sounds weird, like who cares about a blog? 

Well, I realised that I've been writing this for like 3 years, and really, it's quite a lot of myself available for people to read. And I don't like the fact that people have read this, and know more about me than I do them. I don't mean my friends by this. I mean friends of friends and people I don't really know anymore. I thought about how exposed this blog makes me, and I didn't like it. I wanted a break from it. And I didn't like worrying about writing things that would cause arguments again. Because I hate arguing and the hypocrisy. And it stresses me the fuck out. 

My shoulders knot themselves up if I start to think about feeling pressured. 

Not nice.

Also, I've become annoyed with my writing style. It sucks. And it's very frustrating to me. I just want to be able to write something well. 

I want to be able to concentrate on writing for long enough to create something decent. But no. Single lines about stupid fucking tv. 

I think I have anger issues. 

Seriously. 

God. Maybe i should just get rid of this. 

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